1st Place

My chili took 1st place in the Chili Cookoff last night!

(photo from google...it's not my chili!)

What Matters Most

This could not have been more beautifully put. What a wonderful reminder.

More please

This...plus this...Perfection!

I love Honeycrisp Apples with Jarlsberg cheese. A definite treat!

Much Better

Wow. That was a fantastic pitty party! Feeling much better by the way. On Sunday morning, I woke up for the first time feeling good. What a great feeling! Thank you for all your kind words of encouragement. I feel silly I was so dramatic, when life could be so much worse. I am blessed to have such wonderful family and friends who encourage me to keep my chin up, when I am feeling a little down. Also, I think it helped that we had a wonderful weekend full of hiking at Snowbird, laughing hysterically until I was crying, cheesecake (my favorite!) and a visit from a dear friend, yard work, swimming, and movies. It's a good life!

Tears

I had a breakdown this morning. I got out of the shower, and sat down on the toilet and cried. I cried and I cried. I am sick and tired, of being sick and tired. I hate not feeling myself. I hate that my life feels chaotic...my house is always dirty because I don't have the energy to clean...I haven't enjoyed cooking for my little family....laundry is just sitting in its basket waiting to be put away...you get the point. But what I hate most...I hate doing this to my little family. Poor Anton and Lilly have to put up with me not feeling good all the time. And, it is Friday. Friday is always such a fun day in our house. It is the day for Lilly's Gymboree class and it is our day and our night to always go do something fun. I WANT to go do something fun, but I am so drained, and I don't feel good. Its like I just don't have it in me to do anything. Nothing. It makes me sad. I hate it. It made me feel like a mean mom that I didn't want to go to Gymboree with Lilly. I know, I know...I need to get over it. And, I will. I just needed a good cry.

Silver Fork

Anton and I have decided that once a week we would go on a hike together as a little family. Mondays were the day we chose, but this Monday it was raining, so we had to postpone for another day. So, we thought about going yesterday but I was so worn out I couldn't bare the thought of going on a long hike, so instead Lilly and I hopped in the car...picked Anton up from work...and headed up the canyon for a nice drive. I was so glad we did! We stopped at Silver Fork and walked around with Lilly. She loved it. She loves picking flowers, seeing animals, and just being outside. We were able to see a Moose, which was really neat. The sounds it was making were amazing...so cool to hear. Although, it scared me half to death when I turned the corner and there was this giant moose looking at me! It was a really fun night!

Me, Me, Me

*I am thrilled about this new baby.
*I am not so thrilled about being beyond exhausted all the time.
*I am so madly in love with Lilly, I don't know what to do with myself. She probably gets around 500 kisses a day between me and Anton.
*I have a new found love of the Fruit Slushies at Sonic. Preferably the Lime Slushie.
*Sweets just aren't doing it for me right now. I made a delicious Peach Pie on Sunday...haven't wanted another piece since.
*LOVE that fall is just about here. Such a perfect time of year.
*I have several items that I would like to do, but just don't have the energy to do them. It's bothersome really.
*I love listening to Lilly talk all day long. Cutest sound on earth.
*I fell really awkward right now. Regular clothes kind of tight, maternity clothes too big.
*I am getting back into my routine of reading when Lilly is down for her nap. I feel so much better when I do that.
*I watched my first NFL game last night. Go Chargers! Anton is determined to get me "into the Chargers" this year.
*For our Sunday night movie, I watched the very first Star Wars for the first time (well, I may have seen it when I was very little, but I didn't remember it at all).
*I love my Anton, my Lilly, and my little peanut growing inside. My life is very charmed.

Good Fortune!

That's right! We have a short little stranger on its way! We can't wait!!

(Yes, this was a real fortune I got a couple months ago. I saved it all these months, until the day I could use it to surprise Anton!)

Little Walker

Recently...

Our house has consisted of ....
*A lot of baby Tylenol
*Lots of crying
*Stuffy noses
*Upset tummy's
*Sleepless nights
*Tissue after tissue after tissue
*Johnson & Johnson's menthol baby wash
*A very worn out and sleepy mom and dad...who are now coming down with the dreadful cold.